If my degree had any units
based around studying worry and stress, or anything along those lines I would
be a high distinction student, totally averaging around 80-90% (after all
experience is the best teacher right? I wouldn’t even have to attend classes!) It’s
amazing how often my thoughts can be consumed with stressful thoughts and
worries; worries about Uni and Uni work, worries about work and figuring out
how to balance it with Uni, worries about my family and friends, worries about
money, worries about my car (which has a tendency to break down at the most
inconvenient times, such as last night) and yeah…just worries about all aspects
of life in general.
At some point in the
last few weeks I have realised that too often those thoughts, worries and
stress were stopping me from doing things that I would really love to do (like
moving away, which I did anyway but that’s another story,) and that it might
actually be possible to build a life free from an insane amount of worries and
stress. I realised that I was lying awake at night worrying about things
completely out of my control… worrying years into the future (what will I do
when I graduate Uni? Where will I live? Where will I work?), worrying about members
of my family (should I have moved away? How’s my brother coping at school? What
if something happens to mum or dad and I’m hours away?), worrying about money
(What if something happens at work and they decide to fire all the night
fillers? How will I pay my rent? What if something goes horribly wrong with my
car?)…you can see the picture.
